Have you ever wondered if things could be different? What would your life be like if you chose a different path? Would everything still be your fault?Would he still hate you?Would it be better or worse?Would he love you then?My name is Brooke Ellis. I've spent the last five years asking myself these questions as I try to survive my marriage. Some things don't change, and some people don't want to. Sometimes the only answer is to disappear.