Russell Holbrook is from a good Baptist home, a traditional nuclear family, where he was raised with love and given every opportunity that a healthy young man could hope for. But the chemicals in his brain didn't quite mix and flow the way they were supposed to. By the time he was twenty-one years old, in the summer of 1997, his inner and outer life were spiraling downward in a vortex of depression, alienation, addiction, and reckless behavior. He needed help. He needed hope. He needed an answer. And then he found it, only it wasn't what he assumed it to be. This is the true life story of how a happy-go-lucky, beer-swilling, pot-smoking Christian rocker sought to destroy his life, how he succeeded, how he failed, and where he is now.