IqraI've always known that people see me as some sort of clown. Well, I'll have you know, I'm not. What I am, is unique!So the thing is, with everyone in Starville Towers getting married with flawless precision, my mother was freaking out that she hadn't found a husband for me. So the moment a proposal landed on our doorstep, Ammi said 'yes' before any of us could blink. Never mind that it was the guy who was supposed to have married my cousin. Never mind that I didn't get to meet him and ask why he was marrying me instead... never mind that he couldn't even bring himself to look at me.We were getting married and well, that was that ...SaadI was not ready for this. Can anyone ever be ready to get married with a broken heart? They say I'll get over it. They say I'll forget her. But I know it's impossible.I am married to Iqra now. She's my wife but will she ever be the woman I love? In trying to do right by my family, I think I may have done wrong by her.I know I'm going to break her heart. And then I'm going to pray she doesn't leave me. For my family's sake or is it truly for mine?Does the desire I feel for her mean I'm betraying my heart? And where do we go in a marriage when I refuse to love her and she refuses to accept anything less?