Every month it's the same thing, waiting for that pink plus sign to show us our family is growing. But every month it's nothing but heartbreak.Rusty Richards is my other half. My best friend since forever. My ride or die. We did everything right. First came love from friendship, then came marriage, but we still don't have a baby in the carriage.Time is running out and it feels like the deck is stacked against us. Maybe it's time I stopped counting the cards and just let fate determine if being parents is in the cards for us.