How long can you pretend to be okay? And when do you start fighting for yourself?Over a year ago the life Victoria (Tori) Adams had vanished. The cheerleader, the happy daughter, the extrovert - they all disappeared the night Tori attempted suicide. In an effort to save her, her parents moved her from the dry deserts of Arizona to a small coastal town in Connecticut. Now she's standing on a frozen, desolate beach, constantly afraid to say the wrong thing to her mom, hiding the dark thoughts that plague her mind, and fighting to stay.When Tori discovers a secret room in her new house and its connection to the slightly-annoying-but-definitely-cute Nick Janus from auto shop class, she's stuck between a painful past and torturous present. But as time passes and relationships deepen, Tori realizes that even though she's still alive, she has a lot to learn about living.