He wants me to remember and I want to forget he ever existed. The past holds too much pain. He left me with a simple, "I'm sorry I can't." Now he's back. And he's everywhere. Showing up in all the places that we frequented, and invading the newly created normal I made for myself when he left me. His expertise has even been sought at my company, Shoegasm. Making it impossible to breathe without thinking of him and what could have been. Terry should have stayed gone, I can't be with him. Ghosts from the past, who afflicted so much pain, are back. And I can't go down that road again, knowing Terry could end up hurt. This time it's me who has to protect him.