and "Darkness has a hunger that is insatiable and lightness has a call that is hard to hear. and "I sound bitter obviously. But this is me screaming into the void because I need to say it somewhere and accept it.That feeling when you catch someone lying to you, and the way they did it was so nonchalant and normal, that you have to then question anything they have ever said with confidence.The worst part was how ego bruised I felt after catching my wife in the dirty act of being dominated by another man. My pride as her husband was assaulted.Unsure, confused, and frustrated, the combination of a failed marriage. And should it continue further at this point, you will just be treading water in a lonely ocean. As you well know your efforts will cease and you'll eventually sink. Your heart may be into salvaging what is left, but are those crumbs worth bending over for? A shock to the system might help, I slapped divorce papers on the counter in front of her and walked away. Let her wiggle out of that!In actuality, the final days of a dying relationship are really hard, and rarely goes according to all hopes and best laid plans. I tried to accelerate my plans and kept working on them. But unknown to me, life had other plans for me. I call it SWEET CHAOS.